I think I'm very good at taking the easy way out when problems arise, I simply say to myself - walk away, let go, pretend like it never happened and move on.
Yet, I'm still not happy. If I've already left the problems behind, why am I not happy? Because they're still there and I've only chosen to ignore them, not face them and deal with them.
I procrastinate, a lot. Even the major decisions in life I like to put off until I'm forced to deal with them. Why do I do that? Because I'm afraid to face the reality that's why. Simple enough. All because I like to take the easy way out, push things away.
I've decided that I need to keep a diary, to make myself accountable for all my actions and behavior and decisions because then they'll all be recorded and in turn help me to become a smarter person, a more responsible more mature human being.
Hopefully that will help me sort out how to learn from my mistakes because people say "It's okay to make mistakes, but only if you learn from them". But HOW do I know that I've actually learned from my mistakes? Do I have to be faced with the same situation again? Or lessons are suppose to be learnt automatically?
For now, I just need to sort out what are my needs and goals. That's all because I feel so blind right now...
